Tired

i am tired............heart is being pressed like gonna bursted...........but who knows....?


God..i need you....badly...please stay with me :(

That's It.

Great , just great...you guys are amazing , when i tried my best devoting myself into how to make the event better...what are you guys doing? dreaming? sleeping? WHO CARES

I already followed the theme and planned to give you guys alot of time to talk and share feelings , and then? you cant even follow a simple order i planned? when we go out you just sit there like a statue , when we went for sports you just sitting there like your leg is broken....when we want to take photos , you would ignore us and do what you want...

If this is what you want from here...let me tell you one thing , STFU and GET LOST.

You guys made this , and i am done with it , if that's all you guys got , please , get lost from my life.

Alone at home :D

weeeeeeee~ im at home alone again xD for some people it may seem normal but to me it's kind of a rare case :D since my grandparents always stay at home i could rarely taste the feeling of staying alone at home :D

It's really good~ it feels like this home is mine ONLY XD

well~~~~~~ last time i experienced this is this year's Chinese New Year...kinda long O.O




not that emo anyway :P

Cheers~

Life without Facebook

Ever since i stopped facebook ....i got huge amount of time to do other stuffs~~~ i can play other things i never have chance to...i can hang out with my friends more :D and i can play games that require time costing too~~~~

This is the life without facebook :3



i can chat happily with buddies with MSN now...i wont busy doing stuff at facebook anymore :D




this picture is a little small..but it's a 100 flags record of Plant VS Zombie Survival ( Endless )


i began to enjoy the life without facebook....time started to become me to control :)

thats all Cheers~

Disabling Facebook Accounts

First i wanna say...i have 2 accounts...so that's why theres a S over there.

Second , Facebook , to me has become tiring...i couldn't stand people playing Facebook and ignoring others , while they might have some problems or anything , which need your assistance and YOU , who are enjoying the Facebook and leave him / her to dead himself / herself....WTH is with that? So before i become one of them , i stopped it myself , temporarily or maybe permanent.

3rd , I don't like that stupid guy who suicided just because he got dumbed by his girlfriend , he doesn't precious his life given by God , Hilarious....and people are admiring him...this world is totally sick...and who helped the news to spread? Facebook.....Satan is using it and while many of others are unaware....Foolish.

I'm not saying one person only...there's way too many but i am not going to name them out. thats all~


Cheers.

Weird~

These days , my heart wish to leave everything aside and go somewhere...all by myself.

Do anything i want....think anything i wish~

but....it's kinda lonely if im all alone

I don't know , but God surely knows xD

thats all~ cheers

Life isn't goes round all the times

Ever since i became a Christian , my life has changed dramatically .....i had more friends , my appearance changes....my personalities , my thoughts....everything changed....indeed it seems everything turns good...but not really , I become a Christian , is not because i want all the benefits Gods gave us , but wanted believe in Him and obey Him.

True , my life is so much better than before , but there's still so much challenges , Satan is really bad , wanted to destroy my bond with God . But luckily i wont break it even i die....so no matter what unfortunate things happened....i'll pray and believe in God...after that i'll earn the rewards from Him :3

but still......Sometimes it's really unbearable , i often wanna cry....wanna escape...wanna sleep and never wake up...but i know , thats not the right way to deal with things...i should face them....but now....i hardly have the power to do that....God , lead my path :/

Cheers~

Dye~~~

hohoho~~~ people always dye their hair during sch holidays~ but i try my 1st time after my high school....still wondering if it's a lil late or what x.x....but who cares~ i tried it too ^^


BUT~~~ no one told me not to wash head before do that....so there's an hour of pain for me while i dye my hair ~.~ oh well~~~~ it's also an experience anyway~ heres a photo....

Holidays or not?

Haha....my High School life is finally over~ My graduation test's mark is quite okay...but my Final test i'm not sure ><><>

now ~~~ i wish i can enjoy my holidays more...i started to feel Malaysia doens't suit me o_o....maybe i think too much? or maybe it's true...but i really want to leave here now...unless there's something i have to do here..or else i want to leave ASAP :)

It's already 12....yesterday Hagen came to our church and share his songs with us :D It's soooooooooooooo nice~~~ I've helped our Youth members to take some photos when they bought his albums :D

I'll show some here~~

Thats all

Cheers :D

Test week

Weeee~~~ today is the first day of my Graduation Test....well...it went smoothly....i hope the rest are same as today...there's a few subjects that i doubt myself i can pass it. Bahasa for sure...next is Math, the 3rd is Book Keeping...the rest i have confident i can pass and at least achieve B if i work hard...

now....i did do alot of revisions compare to the last 5 years in CHMS1 , this time i finally get serious...i can studied for hours without rest...i don't know why...perhaps theres only one answer~~theres a Person that always accompany when i need Him....He is always there supporting me...giving me strength to go on.

No doubt .It's our Father in Heavan :D He is always there helping us~~~


As long as you believed in Him ... He will bless you with his might...and grant you your desire.....and that worked~~ i often prayed and He always answer my prayer ^^

somehow i love the pic above~~ :3 its kinda warm isn't it??

Thats all...cheers :D

The Day i decided a Christian

This is my jie jie~~ ming wei ^^ you may ask....why i put her picture here?? well~ shes the one who lead me to the road of becoming a Christian...shes the one who lead me to our Beloved Father ^^

Last time i checked her blog...she said that she had led another people to our Father...then i complaint that why she did not write about me xDDD then she asked me that i can write it myself too~ ( shes lazy?? o.o ) soo i decided to write it now~~

well~ it all happened a year ago =) i was invited by Defu to join a Camp organized by SIB the way ( a church =D ) i thought it was interesting and there were 4 of my classmates joining too...so i decided to go too~

The venue is at Unimas ( Malaysia University ) it was totally big and my dad almost got loss since we cant find the place to stop...and finally after a few turns we found it o.o...the first people we talked to is Ah Kit...he led us to the place where we have to register...i was given a badge and a badge where my name is on it and a small notebook where the rules and regulations are inside...then i wait defu to come =) after he and other friends arrived...we are led to the place where we sleep...the room is kinda big~ and we got many rooms inside too~ there were 5 rooms and a toilet there...3 rooms have 2 beds inside while the other 2 only have 1...i picked a room which is the most inside and my room mate is Herbert xD

After we put our things down we are asked to go to the hall which was located at 3rd floor at the other side...we went inside and we were divided into 4 groups ....Spring , Summer , Autumn and Winter ( the four seasons =D ) i was put into the Summer Group and that time my jie jie is my sub-leader ~ i was totally nervous that time since theres way too many unhappy things happened in my school and i had shut my heart totally to strangers...so i was totally quiet that time and she tried pretty hard to make me talk...the 1st difficulty i faced was to stand in front of everyone and introduced myself...i was soooooo scared that time that i almost chose to leave the camp >< but then i didnt...and i did try to do it as asked...she pat my shoulder and said i did a good job...that was the 1st compliment i received...after so long...

I wont write the details of the camp since if i did i'll write about thousand words of it =.=...but the most important part is...every time...she was there...encouraging me...talk to me...share my nerves with me..i felt warm and happy when i stayed with her...and i would talk about anything if she asked me...

On the last day of the camp...which was 6th June 2009 , everyone in the camp sang Birthday song for me ( my birthday is 7th of June ) i was so...happy...that was also the first time my so call " friends " gave me blessings...i didnt cry...but i felt so warm...so happy...though my face couldnt show it..

After the camp , i started to go to the church every saturday to attend the Youth's activities...seriously , i started to love that place and i felt that should be my 2nd home...not School...then one day , on a very special incident..i asked my jie for her MSN...then i started to chat with her , then one night...she told me about being a Christian...and asked me whether im interested to hear it or not...perhaps i trusted her alot...so i agreed...then we opened Skype and talked...she told me a lot about our Father...how His Son , Jesus died for the sake of us...and talked about without Christ..our life is empty and miserable...perhaps its the truth for me...so i chose to believe what she said...and agreed to step into the road of Christian...i can still remember how joyful she was after she helped me did the Prayer of being a Christian...and accept to let Him live inside my heart..at first i was abit nervous since i dont know the religious stuff and i do not know what to do when im a Christian...but she promised that she would help me in anyway she can...And she did keep her promise...she would chat with me when i seek for her aid...whether its physical or mental she would try her best to solve my problems...shes a jie i could not forget...could not abandon and absolutely could not stop loving =D

Lastly i wanna say to you...Thanks Jie...thank you...for everything you had done for me ^^ I promise , that i will live as a Christian , and be proud of it ^^ i will not let you down~!!!

Thats all...Thanks again ^^ Cheers~

Im missing

hahaha~ well seems like its been a week since i blog...where did i go?? well...last week i got plenty of tests and they are way too much for me to handle ( believe me if you saw what i had been reading the whole time =.= ) so i skipped my blogging time for studying....and now i had 10 days off...school asked us to use these time for study and prepare for the final exam...guess i can rest for 1~3 days then prepare the tests HARD

soooo i will blog for a while then i'll skip again xDDD

thats all cheers~~~

Another Random day~

Well....today is 16th September 2010 , It's Malaysia's day....so perhaps i should put a photo of it....NAH~~~ dont ever think about it ! i got no interest about Malaysia nor any events of it...i'm just happy it's holiday =P well since my darling is out with her friends i was kinda lonely and bored...so i decided to find my friends out...

Somehow i felt it's meaningless and a waste of time to ask my school mates...so i asked Theresa and Cys , Potato man and OBY out =) actually most of the times i was with Theresa and Cys , since Potato man has his stuff to attend to but he promised to meet us at 4.30pm...and my OBY jie made no reply to my invitations =.=

I went to Theresa's house first and she was busy preparing cakes for all students who's preparing for Exams ( UPSR , PMR , SPM , UEC , STPM ) she only made a few since we don't have many people's home address and we rarely meet them. I went out with her , bringing her blessings to me , Cys , Amos and his sis , Margaret , Samuel and Potato man . well it's not that time costing since all of their house is kinda near to each other . We're planning to deliver her blessings to Shirlyn and Maybelle , but we had no idea of their home address so we decided to give them on Saturday's Youth.

After delivering her blessings , our last destination is The SPring. Go my house?? Nah~ Theresa has something to deliver to her elder sister ( clothes i heard ) and she parked my car at my house. well cys and i had nothing to do so we went in my home and rest for a little while. we played VBA ( Visual Boy Advance , sort of a Gameboy Advance ) the results were 3 : 1 ( i won of course xP ) then when the time's up we went to pick Potato man at around SIB and went Tarot . i tried a new drink , White Milk Tea. The taste is kinda....nice but the quantity wasn't enough to fit my satisfaction. but i couldnt afford to buy another cup since i need to save money ><>< ) then i brought all of them to Theresa's house then i rushed back to home. On the way home i got a phone call from my darling , she told me my da jie's ( Kimi ) wallet was missing and she was really worried , and told me she would come my house later since she needs to help her to find it , well if it's me i would do the same so i agreed .Finally i reached home at around 6.20 and i rested abit...then i got another phone call from her and she told me her dried mom will be coming to fetch me to play badminton later...20minutes later her dried mom arrived. but she requested me to drive since her back seat was filled with bags and there wont be enough space for me and my darling , and so i drived -_-...when we reached Kimi's house my darling came out and told me that she was really worried about her...but there's nothing we can do to help except pray ( i prayed =P ) then we enjoyed our time playing Badminton....she told me that my skills had improved sharply....i was pretty happy since i rarely did much exercise...and the sweat made me looked like fall into a pond and got all soaked xD

after that we went to Hui Sing to have our dinner ( its 9pm...perhaps it's called supper? ) and to my amazed...i saw Theresa's car there and i'm sure that Potato man and Cys is with her....and i did a bit of survey and i finally found them...they were as surprised as i were , and Cys told me Potato man sucks at playing PS 3 ....i wanna try it too >< then after i had my dinner...something even more surprising happened....my OBY jie is there too~ she seemed like she had just finished her tuition and buying supper.i tried to scare her but i failed coz she saw me first x.x...and she smsed me calling me stupid~ so i attempted my second try~ it was a success xDDD she was totally shocked and jumped up abit~ then i ran immediately towards my car xD

well it's kind of a random but wonderful day....i think i had missed out some parts of it since i'm really tired now...i just finished my preparations for tmr tests....

thats all~ cheers =D

Everything , God has planned for us ^^

Hoho~~ actually im talking about yesterday :3 Well i was kinda bored since my dear wasn't free to accompany me and there's nothing to do at all....so i tried to find people out~ I invited Thessa and she agreed to go out with me~~~ but the condition is i gotta bring her to tuition...i was like : " whats the big deal? xD " and so we went out~~~

Actually we planned to go photo shooting...but since the weather isn't quite good and it rained for almost whole afternoon until midnight....our planned was ruined >< and so we brought Cys along with us....we went Jalan Song~ have a tour at One Jaya...then we got bored and thinking where to go~ Then someone suggested to go random at people houses xD

actually we went only 2 peoples' house xD first is Amos...well he was abit like...huh? when we went to his house xD but he has something to attend that night so we left after a few mins...

Next we went to Cempedak's house , man he was funny because he was half naked all the time then he went into his room and changed xD we went to his house and played PS 1 ( Play Station 1 ) , lolz that game is kinda old....but still it was fun , and too bad i wasn't skilled in that coz he totally owned me >< but after a few practises i finally took my revenge~!!! MUAHAHAHAH XDDD

well after the games we went dinner together , and we talked alot~ we talked about the stuffs of SIB .....and the reason people started to leave...and the programmes we had planned the day before....and how we should get interact with the people in SIB. well it was kinda sad since Thessa has to go tuition so we brought her to the tuition centre and continue without her x_x

Our next station is Ma Zhong...well its nice since we talked even more...we shared our views of Love...and we talked alot about it, but i agreed to bring my dear along at 9 so all of us went to pick her up ....then return to Ma Zhong again~ well my dear is really impressive...she has given Eric alot of ideas how program should be planned...how activities should start and gave lots of precious opinions...well since i wasn't able to go in the conversation since i just started to go to church for 1 year and all of them has gone to church for years....so i felt abit sleepy and got dreamed xD

but i think i did hear the conversations of theirs...well until 11pm we finally went home...man~ i was so tired that i almost fainted when i got home....but im happy...a day that i felt once bored has become a day with so many happy memories

God , you planned this...God , you allowed this....i thank you from the bottom of my heart that i can be blessed by you and earned every single blessing you want to give us...thanks ^^

Thats all~~~ Cheers ^^

A nice song~!!

Today during the Sunday Service , Our Carter Kiu gave us a chance to watch the Amazing Race 2010 Season 2 Vid....and it's so nice ^^ but whats even better is the background music....

i searched and searched and i finally found it =D it's soooo fantastic

well im nt selfish so ima share it here ^^ here goes~~~~~

Best of the best :3

hahaha~ imma post some pictures of my beloved friends , families and my darling ^^

This is my beloved darling ^^ shes soooooo cute~!!!!

This is Hui Ling , she joined SIB this year and we're really good after the Salted Fish Camp ^^

This is Maybelle =D she often acts shy in front of people but inside shes totally crazy xD

Shirlyn , Maybelle's sister....she is not so shy and not so crazy as maybelle , but she can be funny sometimes =P

Yun Yii , my big jiejie ^^ shes pretty and her voice is sweet , we met in Y=/= MC2 Camp in 2009

Jie Qi , I called her Cys =) shes my most cherished mei and we became really really good after some incidents happened to her =)

Left is Wu Chai , My buddy =D he is very good when it comes to singing

Right is Mei Mei , My mei =P shes good at singing too~ and shes really sweet to everyone =)

Ming wei~ my jie ^^ she oftens help me out when im sad or emo-ing , she always has the way to help me and cheer me up...and so i love her alot =D

Defu , One of my buddies , we've been friends ever since Form 1 and hes really a good guy xD (sometimes lazy though xP )

Eric , we call him Cempedak =) hes an overactive guy who likes exciting things...but he can be very quiet and talk some deep stuffs when he needs to do that =P

Theresa~ one of our SIB's worker , she studied psychology so she often helped me out when im not in the mood or something bothers me =)

Siew Chee , he's our soul leader in Youth , his person is really funny and if you talk with him you'll learn alot ( though some people kind of afraid him for some reason )

Benz See....though we're not that close , we met each other in a trip to Permai and she's my darling's close friend , and so we knew each other and became friends =)

Angie~~ we met each other in Y=/= MC2 shes a funny girl with a hyper attitude =) and she loves to take photos...we havent met each other for some time already so perhaps she changed already ? xP

well i think thats all my buddies ^^ well hard to believe when i tried to list all of them down theres so many of em...man im truly Blessed ^^ Thanks my beloved God~~ AMEN

Thats all cheers ^^

Holidays =)

well~~~ after this week i'll have a week of holidays =D actually...i dont really feel excited anymore than i used to be...i wonder why o_o....perhaps my life wont get much difference even i had holidays?? =O well that maybe true...since others can only play computers on weekends and holidays while i can play computers everyday anytime == hmm....now i finally get some time to take some rest and dreaming...perhaps i should do something i had yet to do but always want to do??

hmmm~~~ perhaps i should go do some photographing?? =O but if thats so where should i go neh~~~ it's kind of hard to think a place to go since Kuching doesn't gives me much idea....

hmmm......maybe i'll blog more =D these months i realized the time i always spent on dreaming on reduced greatly....i guess thats because i got myself a girlfriend now and i couldn't simply ignore her and go dreaming can i ? and my school has plenty of tests waiting for me @@ man~~~ i simply dislike school for some reason =.=.....i dont have much friends there and i dont really enjoy school life at all....

Blog blog....hmm~ perhaps i'll do it =P

thats all now~ Cheers xD

P.S HAPPY HOLIDAYS ~~!!!

Finally past~~~

Ho ho~ the long last misunderstanding between me and cys is finally over ( actually it just last for days xD ) though the progress is kind of hurtful since she's really important to me :) it's really hard to find a soul mate in this big big world~ so we gotta cherish once we found one ( credits to Pimys for this ^^ )


so here~~~ my soul mates ~!!! =DD

My OBY jie jie and mei xDDD

Pimys , Zei Guen and Mei =D

My Lovely dear and mei with Pig Ling xP

thats all?? xDDD i guess~ Cheers =D

Well?

Hmph~ I still don't really get it...i understand people get emotional sometimes , but i don't get it why it's me that i'm being hurt when they are being emotional?? This is totally sucks...i was just trying to talk to a person and i get stabbed for no reason.

If the reason i get stabbed is because i care , then i guess this is the end of my caring of everyone of you , and i MEAN it !

thats all..cheers =)

My New Desktop =D

After a little while i realized i can decorate my old Cross design with some songs attach to it~~ so heres how it looks ^^




thats all~! Cheers xD

My dear~! Welcome back to Kuching ^^

haha~~ actually she came back on yesterday ^^ MAN i missed her sooooo much~!!! her plane arrived at 8.20pm and i went there at about 8.05pm ( actually i could go earlier but i played game abit too long xP )

Something funny about my car that it's engine will suddenly dead for no reason =.=...that day it's dead in front of the ticket booth and i was like : " huh?? what the? " but i manage to restart the engine though....but something even funnier happened...i realized i couldn't find the button to press ==....can you imagine my silliness? BUT thats not the end of the story....after i managed to get the ticket , i realized i didn't bring any cash to airport...how am i suppose to pay the ticket =.=lll man i was sooooo silly ><

Well that's the end of the silly things happened on me == I tried to take some photos of the airport but i couldn't find a good angle to catch any good shots ( guess my skills wasn't enough )

It was the 1st time i went to wait somebody at the airport all by myself =DDD well actually not really myself...i was there with Nicky Tan ( my Gf's "dried dad" ) well...i went there myself..so i guess that counts xP anyway we waited for about 20 minutes later and i saw her appeared~~ her hair was turned back to black...and she looks very pretty with it ^^

I had some good times with her that night and i realized i love her even more now ^^

Thats all~ Cheers =D

Pugu~ Welcome to Facebook =D

Ho ho ho~~~ i and my sis just made a facebook for Pugu xDD

well it's kinda funny since my friends are keep asking me : " Wow~ how come a dog has a facebook ? " i was like...:" cant dog has one? =.= " anyway~ since Pugu cant maintain his facebook himself...i and my sis will do the job and keep his status up to date =D we might even help him update more photos of him~!!!

well it's kind of fun since not much people think to make facebook for their pet isnt it? xD

I Love coffee~!!!

MAN i couldnt stop drinking it xDDD especially when it's ice blended...wooo~!!!!

well one thing for sure...i'm not addicted ==...i mean...i did addict to it last time but not now~!!!! i only drink it when i felt that i need it to gimme some energy to study...if there's no test i wont bother drink something that has the same effect as "Red Bull " MOOOOO~ xP

oh well~~~ i just had my coffee...how i wish i can have more～

Is it pressure or it's simply myself ? o_o

well well~~~ seems like im getting quite emotional these days >< i'm not as calm as i used to be~ hmm....i wonder what's the reason x_x....when my dear finds me and talk a little bit stupid stuff i'll get angry...when Cys broke a promise i'll become bad mood...when people doesn't want to talk to me i'll become emo....weird huh? ><

i guess i gotta heal my heart...with God's Strength =DDD well >< maybe i'll start to pray more~ since theres way too much tests are waiting for me and i simply have no time to rest and "meditate" ( actually dreaming xD ) and tests? i studied so hard and yet i failed badly x_x...teachers and my dad are blaming me that im lazy but i actually studied so hard TT *heart cracked oh well~ START TO PRAY xDDD

Went Kch Fest =D

ho ho ho~ today isn't quite nice since my math test didnt really do well ==...and now i just realised that i forgot to give my dad my report card...DARN x_x but anyway~~~ the night is quite nice since i went kch fest with yen~ and yii jie ^^ it's kind of surprise when she called me and asked whether wanna go kch fest with her or not o.o....but still~ it's a good memory xD

we managed to took a little photos there ( most are kind of fail due to our stupid face == ) now im uploading them and finally theres something i can show xDD

ANYWAY~ thats it~ Cheers~!!! =D

After 2 months~

hehehe ^^ it's been a long time since i touch this blog again~ where have i been? =P well~ i just realised that i dont really love blogging that much ^^ but still....i feel that i had been neglecting it for a long time already...so i guess it's time to come back and write something so i can remember them when im old =P

first of all~ it's kind of nice that i'm back...since i told everyone i stopped blogging...no one will come and check it ^^ so maybe i can write anything about anyone without anyone noticing xDDD *evil smiles~ xP nah just kiding...i'm not that rude to do something like that =P but still~ it's kind of boring if i don't record my life....i guess my life will just past without me noticing it x_x....

ANYWAY~ i had talked alot already....still this is just the beginning ^^ i wanna say something about how these 2 months past~~~

first of all , i got myself a girlfriend ^^ Her name is Jereca Ch'ng << ( how do we pronounce it =.= ) the day of our anniversary is 8th of June ^^ which is just a day AFTER my birthday =P we were pretty good and it's nice to have a relationship ^^ though sometimes she likes to act as a child and it's kinda annoying since i got plenty of tests waiting for me in school ( no doubt....i got an average of 4 tests / week ) so sometimes i ignored her a bit...i know she's not happy with that...but if i neglect my studies now i'll just ruin my future =.=...so it's kinda bothering~ oh well x_X.....guess i'll just see what happens next xDDD

next~~~~ i found that i had improved my relationships with alot of people ( Mostly SIB Buddies o_o ) first first~ i had been quite good with Jacys ^^ She's my most cherished mei and i couldnt afford to lose her =D i had accepted her to be as my real sis ~and i treat her just like how i treat my real sis ( Yen ) and she got the rating of 9.5 out of 10 =DDDD can you imagine how important she's to me? ^^ Talk with her is really really interesting since we couldnt stop at all after we start talking =P It is really God's blessing that i can know her ^^

Next is Thessa =D my another mei ( how many meis i have? =P well~~ who knows ^^ ) She's kind of special since we had a big misunderstanding this year...and that totally cracked my heart >.< relationship ="D">

hmm hmm~ next....whom should i write xD guess i'll write the other 3 members of the "Four Leaf Clover " Oh Bak Yii , Market and Ribica xD

well within 3 of them...the closest one is OBY =P since we're in the same group in last year camp ^^ so we're kind of close sometimes~~~ ( she even thought i like her -.-" ) she's pretty and she got a nice voice ^^ though sometimes it's kind of hard to talk to her ...x_x reason = unknown xD

Market and Ribica....hmm...what can i say? xD we're nt really close actually...but for now we can chat alot of lame stuffs xDDD i sure hope we can be even better since it'll get ugly if we're needed to be in same team to do stuffs xD

well well~ looks like i really talked alot huh??? xDDDD well...actually i can write more..but after a phone chat and some FB chatting i forgot alot ==....guess i'll stop here~ TATAX xD

I need to change

Today...after a long thought...i decided...i gotta change my attitude..towards gals >_>...well~ i was told many many times ady..that i treated the girls way too close and they dont like it...and today...气质 told me about the " think too much " then i realised..yeah..i guessed i'm abit too close to girls....so i muz change ><

so for now..maybe i'll start from the beggining..how about~ dont talk to girls unless they find me o_O?? i'm nt really sure what i can do about this problem...oh well..x_x...hope God will lead me...

Happy Birthday xD

WEEEEE~ i had a most enjoyable and nice birthday party celebrated with my dear Father's children ^^ we went K-BOX and sang for 4 hours.....it's totally sweet =D especially there's half litre of REVIVE LEFT~~~~ YAY =D

Then night we went same luo nt straight and had our dinner =D i always go to help others celebrate their birthdays...never thought that this kind of experience can be happened on me too~ it's sooooo weird..>< but im really enjoy it ^^

I'm really grateful that God gave me such a nice life...though i dont really know how can i repay HIM....maybe i'll try to become nicer? xD hmm~i'll just let God lead me ^^

Still still~ theres too many things to say , but i realised~ i'm far better a talker than a blogger xD so~~~~ maybe i'll talk more than blog...woooo~~~~

P.S : I fall down at SIB due to my stupidness this morning ==

Does it worth it?

All the times , i've been doing this~ doing that~ to make others happy..but uhm...i realised today ( should be yesterday since i wrote this after 12am =.= ) i'm really tired and worn out...i couldnt accomplish what i had promised...like today..i promised to fetch my sis at 5pm at Spring...but coz i need to bring people back from SIB...it wasted me 40mins to reach my home..which is 5.40..lucky shes nt mad >_>

so...my sis had told me..if i want to fulfill my dream..i got to care about myself first...and i realised...hm , yeah~ i never care about my feeling when i tried to help others...but if i think too much about myself...i'll become selfish....gah >_>...what should i do?

Foolish

Why can't i get satisfied..? God had already blessed me so much..and yet i'm asking for more and more...without feeling grateful and satisfy...=(

Sometimes i felt people dont really need me...but in deep in my mind i know..it's isnt true..people need me,but they just didnt try to find me..i dont know why...perhaps i was too young for this? o_o

Anyway...i hope my foolishness would be get rid of...maybe i'll pray more...hmm...

Wearing a Mask

When my heart is bleeding...i'll choose to smile to others...pretending theres nothing happens,hmm...sometimes i'm really get angry of myself...why bother hiding myself..why bother smiles when it's not my fault..? I'm really tired of this stupid personality...i'm afraid others being sad or guilty when its their fault...so i choose to smile..and cheer them up..and then people start using my personality...and keep making mistakes...and think it's not her fault? MAN...Are you that heartless to be like that?

Now,i'm going to skip my class and go somewhere to have a drink...i know God won't agree and won't be happy..but...i don't think go to class and do nothing will make God happy either...So...i'm sorry God...hope you'll forgive my rudeness and selfishness...

Sympatize

Just had a tea break with my buddies...and listened mao "chobits' sound " X2 story...kind of..sad..i cant believe the peoples,whom i thought,were nice and kind...but now...hmm..i had no comment about them ==....perhaps we need to have time to talk about this thing...

SO~ conclusion is~ WE LACK COMMUNICATION =.=...

A weird weird mind of mine

Hmm...i just realise that..i love to have lots of dried families O.O...i dont know why...but having them makes me feel warm...maybe my mind is still a kid x_x...

Still~ having these dried families isn't that bad =D Our relationship will get closer and faster this way...and i kinda enjoy it xP

Luny's Self Project

Well,the idea came to my mind when we had dinner with "Beautiful Red ", i saw "Beautiful " "cookie " were talking something private...then i was thinking...until when...people will start to find me and share their feelings with me too..?I had tried to devote everything i can...though i dont really mean that i want people to repay me..but uhm...somehow i just wish that people will trust me...and appreciate what i had done >.<

So i went into deep thought that night...( It's really deep~ i cant even notice yi called me == ) Then i invented this project..though i had spent time making it..it's not really as easy as i thought...since i want to make it neat and sweet~ so far i think i completed it 40% maybe i'll ask suggestion from "Beautiful Red " and other volunteers in our SIB =)

hope this project will work and make my dear God happy =)

Mei Hong leaves Kuching for further education

Mei Hong huh...when i learnt that she's leaving..i was so sad T.T she was the 1st one that came and listen to my story...she's so nice...so warm..when you stay with her you'll feel really peace...still,we can't force her to stay with us forever right? she told us that..everyone has their dream..she has faith in us..and we should trust her too..>.<

Today,i had a lunch with her....she seemed guilty coz i skipped my tuition to eat with her xD but still~ i think it's worthy..since shes one of the person whom let me know our dear Father...God ^^

Her leaving is quite a pity for Youth...since we still have many many...way TOO many things to discuss...but...she'll be back..and i'll wait =D

Introduction

Erm...since this is the 1st post..i guess i should introduce myself =O

My name is Chang Yu Ning...just call me Luny if you want =)

I'm currently 17..but going to be 18 really soon .

I was born in Taiwan and now im living in Kuching .

My hobbies, i love to chat with my friends,making new friends,play games and experience new things =D

I'm a Christian and i'm really proud to become one ^^

So so~ hmm...i'm not really sure what should i type in a blog...maybe not really get used to this o_o....oh well~ thats it xD