I need to change

Today...after a long thought...i decided...i gotta change my attitude..towards gals >_>...well~ i was told many many times ady..that i treated the girls way too close and they dont like it...and today...气质 told me about the " think too much " then i realised..yeah..i guessed i'm abit too close to girls....so i muz change ><

so for now..maybe i'll start from the beggining..how about~ dont talk to girls unless they find me o_O?? i'm nt really sure what i can do about this problem...oh well..x_x...hope God will lead me...

Happy Birthday xD

WEEEEE~ i had a most enjoyable and nice birthday party celebrated with my dear Father's children ^^ we went K-BOX and sang for 4 hours.....it's totally sweet =D especially there's half litre of REVIVE LEFT~~~~ YAY =D

Then night we went same luo nt straight and had our dinner =D i always go to help others celebrate their birthdays...never thought that this kind of experience can be happened on me too~ it's sooooo weird..>< but im really enjoy it ^^

I'm really grateful that God gave me such a nice life...though i dont really know how can i repay HIM....maybe i'll try to become nicer? xD hmm~i'll just let God lead me ^^

Still still~ theres too many things to say , but i realised~ i'm far better a talker than a blogger xD so~~~~ maybe i'll talk more than blog...woooo~~~~

P.S : I fall down at SIB due to my stupidness this morning ==

Does it worth it?

All the times , i've been doing this~ doing that~ to make others happy..but uhm...i realised today ( should be yesterday since i wrote this after 12am =.= ) i'm really tired and worn out...i couldnt accomplish what i had promised...like today..i promised to fetch my sis at 5pm at Spring...but coz i need to bring people back from SIB...it wasted me 40mins to reach my home..which is 5.40..lucky shes nt mad >_>

so...my sis had told me..if i want to fulfill my dream..i got to care about myself first...and i realised...hm , yeah~ i never care about my feeling when i tried to help others...but if i think too much about myself...i'll become selfish....gah >_>...what should i do?

Foolish

Why can't i get satisfied..? God had already blessed me so much..and yet i'm asking for more and more...without feeling grateful and satisfy...=(

Sometimes i felt people dont really need me...but in deep in my mind i know..it's isnt true..people need me,but they just didnt try to find me..i dont know why...perhaps i was too young for this? o_o

Anyway...i hope my foolishness would be get rid of...maybe i'll pray more...hmm...

Wearing a Mask

When my heart is bleeding...i'll choose to smile to others...pretending theres nothing happens,hmm...sometimes i'm really get angry of myself...why bother hiding myself..why bother smiles when it's not my fault..? I'm really tired of this stupid personality...i'm afraid others being sad or guilty when its their fault...so i choose to smile..and cheer them up..and then people start using my personality...and keep making mistakes...and think it's not her fault? MAN...Are you that heartless to be like that?

Now,i'm going to skip my class and go somewhere to have a drink...i know God won't agree and won't be happy..but...i don't think go to class and do nothing will make God happy either...So...i'm sorry God...hope you'll forgive my rudeness and selfishness...

Sympatize

Just had a tea break with my buddies...and listened mao "chobits' sound " X2 story...kind of..sad..i cant believe the peoples,whom i thought,were nice and kind...but now...hmm..i had no comment about them ==....perhaps we need to have time to talk about this thing...

SO~ conclusion is~ WE LACK COMMUNICATION =.=...